change

if i saw my current life walking down the street two years ago, there is no chance i would have recognized myself. that to say that i'm so glad God is sovereign and that he sees how all the pieces fit because i certainly don't. i feel like i spend so many of my days being pleasantly surprised by the little twists and turns my life is taking, which is doing a lot to strengthen my belief in God's goodness. all this is very vague but we can chat it up if you want specifics. i just felt like I had to capture for myself my overriding mood of this last month and a half which has been "pleasantly surprised". When I finally stopped trying so hard, good things just walked up to me and said "hello". Despite all my busyness, which never seems to go away, in my utmost I feel more restful and at peace than I have in years. If only I could remember that when my overanalyzing mind decides to ponder the future- that undefined set of possibilities.

Time is both racing and strolling along on a beautiful fall day. My life with Stephen is already so completely different than it was without him; that was less than two months ago. I suppose I should just learn the lesson God is teaching me and trust him and the plans he has for me, despite all the unknowns. What was a bit of "running away" to Sweden is definitely no longer serving the same purpose, but hopefully God has a place for those 5 long months of cold and darkness in his master plan.